The Blink of an Eye

We have pretty good kids. They play well together more often than not. They usually eat their veggies. They enjoy Sunday School, hiking, swimming, and pretending to be Power Rangers in the backyard.

Wesley (5), Nathaniel (3), Bella (7).

But every day at eight o’clock bedtime rolled around. Bed time was always a chore, and it would put me in a foul mood by the time they finally passed out at ten o’clock. Bedtime was quickly approaching. It was already 7:30, when we would normally start our bedtime routine. But this particular Sunday night my oldest and my youngest were happily cohabitating in her bedroom. Wesley, after a gastrointestinal fireworks show that morning, spent a sick day downstairs in front of the TV. The house was too hot for the kids to sleep, so I told him one more show, and Bella and ‘Thaniel that they could play for a little bit more. The temperature outside had finally dropped lower than the temperature in the house and the cool pleasant breeze was flowing in through the living room windows. A few fans helped to circulate the air in our AC-less Pacific Northwest home. There are only a few weeks out of the year when it gets hot enough to be uncomfortable, this was one of them. The kids had all been going to sleep in just their underwear and when I would head to bed around eleven I would cover them with a sheet. My three year old, Nathaniel, ran out into the living room naked.

“Mama, I went peepee in the potty.”

“Good job, Buddy. Are you ready to put your bedtime diaper on?”

“Nope, I wanna be naked!” He struck a ninja Power Ranger pose and I laughed.

“Alright, Than, you and sissy have five more minutes to play, just until I finish this laundry, then no more naked time. Bedtime.”

“Ok!” He took off down the hall. Boundless energy. I could tell when he’d gotten to his sister’s room because she came back out.

“Mom, ‘Thaniel’s naked.” She said it with half an eye roll of a fifteen-year-old.

“I know, he’s fine, you guys have five more minutes to play.”

“I’m not playing, I’m reading.”

“Then you have five more minutes to read before we need to clean up the Littlest Pet Shop toys you guys were playing with earlier.” She skipped away.

There was peace in my house. Momentary peace. The kids were calm, the laundry was at least in the process of being folded. And then Bella ran back into the living room.

“’Thaniel fell out my window!”

The world seemed to pause as I sprinted down the stairs, out the front door, down the porch steps and saw my son, moments earlier full of joy and life, now lying face down, on the window screen, on the cement driveway, naked, not moving. Please God. I don’t know how I kept my voice so calm, but I needed his sister to help me.

“Bella! Get the phone, dial 911 and bring it to me.” She ran back into the house. I placed my hand on his chest and could feel his breath. “You’re okay buddy.” He still didn’t move.

My neighbor, from across the street ran from her house in Hysterics. “Oh my God, Heather! I saw him fall!”

“Call 911, he’s breathing!” I yelled back. She ran into the house and I could hear her on the phone with dispatchers as her husband, told her to calm down. Bella handed me the home phone, she hadn’t dialed it yet.

“Bella. Get me my shoes, my purse, and my cell phone.” She ran back in. I kept talking to ‘Thaniel as he lay there unconscious. I saw that the left side of his face was covered with blood from impact. His eye was hugely swollen and deep purple. There was blood in his hair. Please God, hold him in your hands.

                Bella returned with my things. She was scared, but there wasn’t anything I could do to help her. “Bella, hunny, he’s breathing, and the ambulance is coming. I need you to go next door and get Miss. Johanna to watch you and Wesley while I ride with ‘Thaniel to the hospital.”

Our neighbors, still on the phone with the 911 operator, had crossed the street.

“Where’s Thomas?” her husband asked. My husband works as a Nurse Practitioner at several Emergency Rooms nearby. My brain attempted to recall his schedule for about 5 seconds before giving up and focusing all my attention on my son. “I don’t know.”

She knelt down near ‘Thaniel and me, and prayed fervently for him.

‘Thaniel whimpered, and then began to calmly cry. It was the most wonderful sound I’d ever heard. I told him Mama was there, that he was gonna be okay, and to just lay still. I knew from years of Girl Scout first aid training not to move him in case he had a spinal injury. He started to move his arms slowly. I could hear the sirens in the distance.

Bella returned with our regular babysitter, I was thankful for my daughter’s level head throughout the trauma, and thankful for Miss. Johanna being there to comfort her.

Nathaniel tried to stand up. “It’s okay, buddy, just stay still, you’re gonna be okay. God loves you and we all love you.” He tried to climb into my lap, so I held him. I used my arm to stabilize his neck as much as possible. He passed in and out of consciousness in my arms. The sirens got closer. Dee got Wesley, 5, from the house and offered to take both the kids for as long as we needed her to. I told the big kids to give ‘Thaniel a kiss, and tell him they love him.

 

I didn’t want them to say goodbye. I didn’t want it to be goodbye.

 

Wesley kissed his brother’s shoulder, not really understanding what had happened “I love you ‘Thaniel”. The ambulance pulled onto our street and Dee waved to them as they pulled up.

“Bella, give your brother a kiss, and tell him you love him.” She slowly approached, knowing full well that he could just as easily be dead in an hour as alive, kissed his arm and whispered “I love you.”

I carried him onto the Ambulance.

They put him in a C-collar and strapped him to a backboard and started an IV.

My husband still had no idea what had happened. I tried to send a text but couldn’t get service from inside the Ambulance. I managed to leave a message on his cell, but unsure if he’d get it I called my Father-in-Law to track him down. I then recounted how I found my little boy in the driveway for the first of many times. I could hear my voice, flat, factual. I didn’t want to leave anything out.

My husband saw that he’d missed a call, and that I left a message. He started to walk away, intending to check the message after seeing a few more patients, but as he was leaving the reception area changed his mind and heard “Thaniel fell out of Bella’s window; we’re on our way to Mary Bridge.” My husband, who has prayed audibly less than five times in his life, spent the drive from one hospital to another asking God to keep his son safe, to make him thankful and appreciative for the time He’d given us with our joyful boy thus far in life. He prayed that Thaniel was still alive.

The ambulance ride seemed endless. The EMTs continued to wake my son as he slipped in and out of consciousness. When his body would go limp I would take solace in the constant levels displayed on the heart rate and oxygen monitors. Then thank God when he’d give the faintest whimper, not realizing more often than not I’d been holding my breath. We drove quickly and steadily save for one moment when two cars made left turns in front of the ambulance, causing us to stop, sirens still blaring. Seriously, my son is dying! It was the only time I allowed a negative thought to enter my mind. I quickly pushed it away.

His eye was so swollen I thought it would burst, I was sure he’d be blind in one eye at the very least, but at that moment his sight didn’t matter, his life did. In that moment I knew I’d be thrilled with any amount of damage if it meant my son would live through this.

They wheeled him through the ER, and directly into a large trauma room. I stayed just outside the doorway in the hall. I wasn’t who he needed right then. The room flooded with nurses, technicians, doctors, and specialists. Each focused on their personal aspect of his care, but all working in perfect harmony. He cried softly. Just keep crying. You’re gonna be ok. Complex machinery chirped unintelligible information in a symphony of beeps and blips. I watched his tiny helpless body go limp and lifeless again. People swarmed, I couldn’t see past them. There wasn’t room for me amid the bustle of activity.

The ER social worker brought me a chair, as I sunk into it my legs felt weak and the room got orange and slow for a minute, don’t pass out, I took a few deep breaths to clear my head. She handed me a cup of water. I just held it. Didn’t know what else to do with it. ‘Thaniel’s room looked like a hornet’s nest that had been struck. The Social Worker told me it was okay to cry, like my silence meant I wasn’t feeling anything. But she was wrong. If he woke back up, I didn’t want my son to hear me crying. He needed to know that I wasn’t worried. He needed to see that Mommy was calm. So I didn’t cry. I didn’t move. I barely breathed.

Thomas hurried down the hall just as they wheeled Nathaniel to get a head CT. I told him what happened, my hands beginning to shake. He took the cup of water from me and wrapped me in his arms.

“This is not your fault.” he whispered. Most of me believed him.

I posted a request for prayer on Facebook, called my Pastor, my parents, and then we waited.

Nathaniel after his head CT, waiting for the results.

CT came back and he had skull fractures above and under the left eye. They were unsure if or how it would affect his vision.

 

Thaniel’s heart rate seemed a little high and he was moaning. A nurse gave a dose of morphine for the pain. Immediately his heart rate and respiration lowered and he slept. At least my husband understood what all the machines meant. He assured me that ‘Thaniel’s vitals looked good.

My parents sit with Nathaniel in the ER

Chest, neck and spinal X-rays had come back clean. The doctor was concerned that he may have some damage, some bruising to his brain just behind the skull fracture, and put out a call to an expert surgeon to get a second opinion. We would have to wait for the specialist to read the results of the scan before we’d know for sure. There was a chance he’d need surgery and the surgeon at Mary Bridge didn’t feel comfortable doing it.

Things began to slow down. We were moved to a private room in the ER to wait. Our parents came and went.

Thomas took my spot at his bedside. I wanted to update friends and family about Thaniel’s prognosis. When I saw the response to my request I was astonished. There were people I’d never met praying for our son, sharing his story. Hundreds of strangers appealing to God on his behalf. We were hopeful.

Thomas stepped out of the room for a moment and I stayed with ‘Thaniel. He opened his eye.

“Hey buddy,” I smiled as I gave his hand a gentle squeeze.

“Hi.” His voice was small and rough.

“I Love you.”

“I love you too.” His words flooded me with certainty. I knew he would be ok.

“We’re at the hospital and the nice doctors are gonna help you feel better.”

Thomas walked into the room.

“Hey Buddy, Daddy’s here.” I moved aside for Thomas.

“Hey ‘Thaniel. You’re such a tough guy. Are you the Green Ranger?”

“No. I’m just ‘Thaniel.”

“Okay buddy, you’re just ‘Thaniel. It’s good to talk to you.”

“Yeah.” he fell back asleep.

I tried, desperately to swallow the sobs welling in my throat, but it was so heavy it was choking me. Hearing my son tell me he loves me. Hearing my son. I believed I would, but I didn’t know if I’d ever hear his voice again. My chest was unbearably tight. ‘Thaniel was asleep. It was just me and Thomas, I lay my head on his shoulder and finally cried.

It was just after midnight when we got news that he’d be admitted to the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit and remain at Mary Bridge. His skull fractures would not need surgery and the specialist did not see any brain bruising on the CT films! My parents brought Bella and Wesley to see him. We were concerned his injuries would bother them but his sister had begged to come. Bella looked at him, silent and motionless, eye swollen and in a C-collar. She hugged me as I held her and then whispered in my ear with a small voice “Is he dead?” We told her her again that he was just sleeping and that the doctors had given him medicine so that he wouldn’t hurt but she was not convinced.

After arriving upstairs we met with an opthamoligist who was able to pry back ‘Thaniel’s swollen lids. To do this they needed to sedate my son, which bothered me. He’d been so close to death hours earlier. I couldn’t imagine lowering his vitals intentionally, but we needed to do it. she was able to see that his eye looked perfect, not even red. No nerve damage. Although it would be weeks before the swelling would go down and we could see how his vision was affected by the fall, we had every reason to hope for no damage to his eyesight!

The first night was hard, even at 3am lights were on in the room, nurses came in constantly, machines beeped, alarms would sound and every time they did I thought something was wrong, though thankfully it never was. He’d wake up crying that he “hurt”, then they’d give him more morphine and he’d drift back off to sleep.

Things began to look better the following morning. He still wasn’t smiling, and he was sleeping a lot, which the doctors said was normal so the brain could heal. We were waiting for urine tests to come back, letting us know if there was any damage to the internal organs. Monday morning we were able to remove the C-Collar. Thomas handed him the small stuffed walrus that he’d gotten from the EMTs and he grabbed it with his right had, then immediately dropped it and said his arm hurt. They hadn’t done X-rays of any of his extremities upon arrival, just the chest, neck spine and a CT of the head. Doc did a physical exam of the rest of him and his only complaint was the right forearm just above the wrist. Sure enough, after X-rays we found a buckle fracture. We put a splint on his arm and took this video to send to his big brother and sister.

The staff at Mary Bridge were amazing. They were kind to Nathaniel throughout his entire ordeal. Day three we were able to move down from PICU to the main medical floor.

People continued to pray for Nathaniel. I was the most impressed with new friends and coworkers who, like me, were Brand Partners with Nerium International. Colleagues from across the country I’d never met were posting prayers for my son every hour. When late night west coasters would go to bed early morning east coast Brand Partners woke up. There was not an hour that went by our entire hospital stay that didn’t have a comment of prayer, and those were just the ones I saw. I was so blessed by their outpouring of support. I believe this company fell in my lap when it did (3 months earlier) so these prayer warriors would be in our lives when we needed them.

‘Thaniel, on day three, finally wanted his stuffed walrus. Which became his favorite lovie for weeks after this ordeal. I was so happy to get to hold my son on my lap after he’d been confined to a fully-enclosed crib  for two and a half days.

All tests finally came back, and ‘Thaniel had managed to take that fall and come out with not a scrape on his body from the neck down. A skull fracture, wrist fracture, and a nasty black eye. He was still very low on energy (he lasted two pages of this book before falling asleep) but we knew that he was going to recover.

Day three he smiled. He looked at us and said “Poop jokes is comin” I have never been so happy to hear him talk about poop. (Something he and his older brother are scolded for incessantly) Our happy jokester was showing signs of emerging from his pained, unhappy little body. Our boy was in there, and trying to come out.

‘Thaniel and our amazing nurse took a photo before we’re discharged home (armed with window locks for immediate installation upon arriving there). We could tell he was feeling better because 95% of the photo’s I have of him over the last 3 months have his tongue sticking out.

Home safe and sound. We recorded a thank you video for all of those who were praying, and who continue to pray, for our family and Nathaniel’s recovery. It can be found here

He was so happy when he could finally open his eye!!

This is Nathaniel five days after his fall. His recovery was miraculous. We got a cast for his forearm fracture. and after the appointment he wanted to stop and smell every. single. flower. from the building to the car. You know what?

I let him.

We were shocked to hear how often children fall from windows. This happens especially in the summer time when many families cool their homes, like we did, by opening a window. Ours wasn’t low to the ground. In fact Nathaniel had to climb over the foot board of his sister’s bed, and shimmy across the window sill to get to the screen in order to push on in ever so slightly. It takes less than five pounds of pressure to knock out a window screen. They’re meant to keep the bugs out, not the toddlers in. Click here For more information on how to prevent falls from windows. Please, put window locks on your windows (we installed these! for less than a dollar a window). Tell the people who care for your children about window locks. Ask other parents about their window security if your kids have play dates at their home. We almost lost our little boy. Please, let our story save yours! God Bless.

Somebody Needs a Bath!

We live in Washington.  If you’ve never made it out this way I recommend it.  The beautiful mountains, the ocean, the dense magical forest, and there’s something else you may have heard about our wonderful Washington State…oh yeah it RAINS.  ALL THE TIME.  I don’t mind the rain, I’ve grown up in it.  Honestly I didn’t even realize it rained this much until I went off to college to a state where it didn’t rain every day.  Well, now I’m back and had once again gotten used to the rain.  What I was not used to was

RAIN+CHICKENS=WET UNHAPPY CHICKENS

Well, the kids and I worked on something today and here it is!

Bella and Bubba shovel some ashes into the new chicken bathtub.

Add some dirt…

mix it up

mix it a little more…

let baby loose in the chicken yard… (he was so happy, the chickens…not so much)

apparently kids like dirt baths too.

a lot.

the girls weren’t too sure about it, but I hope they’ll like it…if it ever stops raining long enough for me to open it up for them.

then again, if it didn’t rain so much baby couldn’t spend fifteen minutes throwing rocks into the ocean…or gravel into the driveway puddle…

On a side note, the have a heart trap has managed to catch a squirrel, a chicken, and the neighbor’s cat.   However, it has yet to catch a raccoon.  Maybe it’s hiding to stay out of the rain.

D-Day for Willie-Blue CAUTION: GRAPHIC

This morning Willie-blue, the second largest silkie chicken, let out a crow while I stood in the coop calmly waiting.   He got to spend his last day in the other pen munching on fresh greens and bugs while the girls remained on their pecked-down-to-nothing side of the pen.  Beanie and her Daddy watched a few youtube videos about how to best kill a chicken and talked about the circle of life.  She (opposite of how I thought she was going to react) was right there with Daddy every step of the process.

Willie-Blue gets a calm walk to execution-land. But in all seriousness he was a very sweet chicken and we all (Beanie included) gave him a nice pat and told him thank you for feeding us.

“Hey, what are you guys doing down there?”

Quick swing around and the neck is broken. We decided this was the fastest and most humane way to kill him.

Beanie got a very visual lesson about the nervous system. She also enjoyed the anatomy lesson, observing the heart, liver, kidneys and spine.

Sorry baby, you can’t help.

Off the with head to drain the blood. Shiloh was very interested as you might imagine.  She gobbled up the heart and any other scrap that hit the ground.

as evidenced by the teeeeeny chicken breast…silkies were not meant to be meat birds…come to think of it they’re not meant to be laying birds either. Good thing they’re pretty.

Beanie marveled at how soft the feathers were.  Even now, as I type and my husband skins the chicken, she is ouside collecting the feathers to take to her secret fort in the woods.

UPDATE:  He wasn’t the only one!!!!  There was another crow from the coop today!  Booo!!!

Butterflies on a rainy day

I feel like it’s been ages since I’ve posted anything.  It could be my husband joking about how I’ve gotten myself sucked into the blogosphere, or maybe it was the stress of planning and executing my daughter’s 5th birthday party.  Perhaps the fact that I’ve been the ultimate slacker where our chickens are concerned, falling victim to perfection’s evil brother “good enough”.  We installed our gravity feeder, only to have to reach in and manually pull food out each morning and evening.  The watering system exists, but only in my mind.  It doesn’t do the chickens much good there.

We’ve been making slow progress on the downstairs bathroom remodel, tile is laid, grout is down, and now it’s just a few more hours of picking specks of grout out of the tiles with a tiny screw driver so it doesn’t drive me crazy for the next 30 years and we can seal it!

Instead of hitting any of these issues, I looked out the window into the rain and decided to brighten up our house with an art project.  I found this cute site for making coffee filter butterflies and the kids were more than happy to join my painting party.

Materials Needed:

Coffee Filters

Water Color Paint kit (and water)

Pipe Cleaners

Paper Towels

optional: Paper plates

The first step isn’t essential, but Bubba insisted that the cars get all lined up to watch the project.

Next flatten the paper coffee filters and paint them with water-color paints. I flattened them onto plates for easier clean-up.

Be sure to use lots of water to blend your colors, and take care to get all the way to the edges. Painting faces is also an option if you’re 2 1/2.

Lay them out on paper towels to dry. I let them dry overnight just to draw the project out for another day but it wasn’t necessary (neither was blowing on them…but I wasn’t about to tell Bubba).

After they’re dry fold them back and forth accordian style about 1/2 in.
Take a pipe cleaner, fold it in half and place the center of the folded filter into the crook of the pipe cleaner. Twist the pipe cleaner several times and shape the ends of the antenna.

Beanie showing off her finished butterflies.

Bubba gives us a “one-eyed only” smile and shows off his new haircut.

When you’re finished hang your summer butterflies around the house. We used thread to hang them in the windows. The sun shining through the colorful wings really brightens up the room.

Weekly Photo Challenge: Close

This photo was taken by Deanna Watson back when Beanie was just waiting to see if Bubba was going to be a brother or a sister.

Beanie recites another poem.

Homeschooling has been winding down. We’re not going to stop for the summer, but will slow down and cut back hours.  The unit on poetry has been great for Beanie. We’re working on memorization as well as public speaking skills, speaking clearly and slowly (this one is tough, especially when she gets excited, but she’s doing pretty great). She picks a poem from Random House’s Treasury of Best-Loved Children’s Poems to memorize and then gets very excited to video-tape and post it to facebook for her grandparents to see.  This week she chose Daddy Fell into the Pond, by Alfred Noyes.  Be sure to check out Beanie’s poem on youtube.

For math we’ve made it through the Orange and Red books with Miquon Math as well as 101 things every first grader should know about math.  I like the Miquon system.  It gives good pages for review and self-guided work.  However, if you’re considering buying it keep in mind that it isn’t a stand alone as far as I’m concerned.  I am able, quite easily, to focus more attention on items she struggles with before moving on.  So for us it works well.

Miquon Math Red book, photo from Christianbook.com We bought the full set of miquon books 1-3rd grade and math rods on amazon after price checking.

This week Beanie wanted to work on money again so we took out the coins and played shop for a while.  She also visited a great game for counting coins on abcya!  There are a bunch of fun (mostly educational) games on that site.  Another favorite of mine is the synonyms/antonyms game.  This site breaks the games into grade levels, and is a fun reward for her when she gets other work done.

Wed and Fri my husband is off work and they’re excited to talk about bees then go on a bee hunt and sample some honey (from our kitchen most likely but still delicious).  Silent reading is almost over, and Baby is awake so I should sign off.  Beanie and I hope you enjoy the poem!

Weekly Photo Challenge: Today

Bubba and Beanie playing in the sunshine on the deck.

Beanie’s Poetry Assignment

We have been doing a focus on poetry this month.  We started with a simple haiku and now we’re doing poetry appreciation and memorization.  Beanie worked hard to memorize two poems last week and we took a video to share with friends and family.  She asked if I would put the video up on the blog.  Why not, there are other homeschoolers out there who might enjoy it.  I’m not sure how to post the video directly without upgrading my wordpress so here is a link to the youtube video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2S-xDI9fyv0&feature=g-upl

 

Beanie (4 1/2) giving Bubba (2 1/2) his first chess lesson with the chess board she got from her Grandparents.

We start learning early in this family…get reading baby!

 

What in the World are my Chickens Doing?

Our always curious Easter Egger.

Ok all you chicken owners out there, help me out.  What the heck are my chickens doing?  They will plop down onto their side, stick out their little drumstick and raise up one wing.  Are they just sunbathing?  My uncle says he’s never seen his chickens do this?  I spent a while outside hoping to catch a few with the camera.  What do you think?

Beanie also wanted me to take some shots with her in the chicken yard.  That girl loves to hang out with the chickies, but doesn’t want to pet them (only b/c she doesn’t want to have to go inside and wash with soap and water afterwards).  Her brother on the other hand would pet them for hours and hours if I let him.

You have to love how she works the camera. She just skipped around the coop saying, ooh, take one here…and here…and here…very adorable.

Beanie and Pretty Polly, my favorite little chicken. Several of them will tolerate being held, but I think she may actually enjoy it.

What are these crazy chickens doing? Barred Rock, Silkie, Silkie, Rhode Island Red…in some sort of crazy raise-the-wing line.

One of our blue silkies out enjoying the weeds.

Beanie snapped a pic of me over by the coop.

Update

My daughter and I just spent a little over an hour cleaning up in the garage while the boys napped and somehow it is still covered with a fine layer of chicken dust.  Bleck.  Thankfully I had to wake up baby for lunch so I had an excuse to take a break.  I’d really like to get it done today so my husband can work out in the morning.  I think we all feel better when we get a chance to workout.

The chicks have survived living outside in their coop!  They’ve stayed in today though as it’s only 53 degrees outside.  Good old Washington weather.  I had the chicken door open for an hour or so but twice had to come to the loud chirping rescue of two little chicks who’d managed to get out of, but who still have no idea how to get back in, the coop.

I got the idea for the PVC pipe feeder from this blog. http://thebroodybunch.com/story/feeders/216/new-feeder/ and we have the materials, just need to install it. We figured we’d wait until the chicks are a bit bigger. (Especially Teeny Weenie who would starve to death if we put this in now.)

There are still a few more things to do, build an automatic watering system, and install the pvc pipe feeder.  However, I just looked over our budget for last month…apparently building a palace for chickens pecks quite a hole in your bank account!  They’d better start laying soon.

The only issue I’ve been having is that they’re still managing to pile shavings into their watering dish at least nightly.  Have you found any way to keep your young ones watered so they can’t clog it up?